Hope i can through this day nicely. :D

Saturday of January on 11th in 2014,
Hari ini adalah hari yang sangat tidak berguna untuk saya. Kenapa? Karena disepanjang hari ini, saya tidak satupun melakukan hal yang bermanfaat. Entah bermanfaat untuk diri sendiri ataupun untuk orang lain. Saya tahu kalau ini salah dan harus diubah. Tetapi tetap saja ada beberapa hal yang menurut saya sulit untuk dilawan. Bicara soal sesuatu yang sulit, saya ingat entah itu kata-kata atau kalimat dari siapa saya lupa. Intinya beliau menjelaskan bahwa di dunia ini tidaklah ada yang sulit. Segala sesuatu akan mudah jika kita niat dan berusaha bersungguh-sungguh (tidak setengah-setengah.red). Saya percaya itu. Tetapi masih ada saja yang mampu membuat saya untuk betah bermalas-malasan atau tidak melakukan apapun. Sungguh jika cerita ini diketahui oleh orang normal atau pekerja keras, maka saya pasti akan diejek, diremehkan atau apalah itu. "Loe tuh manusia atau bukan sih? Kalau loe manusia, loe pasti bisa ngegunain akal loe buat berpikir rasional. Loe bisa manfaatin waktu loe dengan sebaik-baiknya kalau loe emang bisa berpikir!" Mungkin itu ungkapan atau kata-kata yang keluar dari mereka dan anehnya, kenapa saya bisa menebaknya?. Batinku berkata. I know it, aku tahu konsekuensinya, akibatnya, kerugian yang gue alamin dengan kelakuan malas-malasan gue itu. Tapi KENAPA GUE MASIH GAK BERUBAH? Sedikitpun aja gak ada yang berubah dari gue.
Mungkin ini yang dinamakan masuk telinga kanan keluar telinga kiri.
Nah, itu gue tahu.
Tapi tapi dan tapi......
Kenapa setiap ada yang memberi nasihat atau menunjukkan ke jalan yang benar, saya selalu menyangkalnya dengan jawaban TAPI, TETAPI?. What does it mean? :'(
Aha! Gue tahu. Apa mungkin gue itu tipe orang yang gak penurut? Penyangkal? Atau emang gue aja yang bodoh ya.
Kalau gak penurut itu gak mungkin, cuz gue nurutin kok apa yang ortu gue suruh. Gak nyangkal lagi, tapi kalau dipikir lagi gue lebih sering atau kadang-kadang ngeles aja. Cari-cari alasan gitu loh. (Nah, itu loe tahu!!) Hemmm, gimana ya solusinya?...

I through gratefully today. Why? Becoz my final exam would have been finished. Actually, i was worried inside becoz i don't have study enough. I don't know why?. Maybe when the holliday's week i didn't study all day long. I just spent mytime for myself. I got laziness fever. I'm sure that i really want to study but i couldn't do that. It was difficult situation actually. I've tried hard. Maybe i'm still can't to control my mind and an eager to learn well. I have to try harder than before. I know that i can do it. I have to lose my laziness and adjourn many jobs easily. (menunda-nunda pekerjaan). Back to the real life... today i have a sport lesson exam. I'm trying to not cheat my friend's answer. Its hard becoz everybody do like that in the class and i have no friend to didn't cheat. So tragic, right? . Ah, ya.. i have to tell this that I want to be a good people like my father. Its hard. It isn't easy as people talk about. But i realize that i have to do this. I have to be like him moreover if i can be better than him. The point is i have to struggle hard. Never say give up!. I have to have my heart and my destiny of life are for my beloved God. Even i have a great generation, i know i can't to relinquish (melepaskan) it like that anymore, begitu saja. You have to be like what your grand grand grandpa being.
Once again, i have to study hard too for my study master in Egypt. I have to get a scholarship again there. I don't know what my genre that i will take there. I just can pray, hope and effort maximally. :D
I was feeling great when my masyer study will through in Egypt. It will be an exciting experience.
C'mon Lutfi.. you can do it!!
Just believe yourself and be more confident, okay.. You have to focus!
Do not thinking about everything meaningless. :D
Done!!!!!! ;)

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Intrapersonal Intelligence

People with intrapersonal intelligence are adept at looking inward and figuring out their own feelings, motivations and goals. They are introspective and seek understanding. They are intuitive and typically introverted. They learn best independently. 

Common Characteristics Introverted Prefers working alone Philosophical Self-aware Perfectionistic Often thinks of self-employment Enjoys journaling Intuitive Independent Spends time thinking and reflecting Likes learning about self

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When i heard that the ceremony would be held in Ketintang, the first impression is thankfull to God, Why? Becoz that's near my house. Eventhough a lot of my friends were beefing about that. I was act like beefed too. But i can lie myself that i was happy inside. Everyday on PKKMB agenda, i was going to Lidah early morning however the way that i was feeling that time. Tired, Sleepy were always accompany me but i had to do that. Becoz it became requisite of graduation exercise (at divisional level). So it was so important for me. I had no absent for that, but i had an absent for an agenda of PKKMB that was a Seminary. I had to attended but i can't. I had a reason for that but i was not alone at that time, there was my friend didn't attend that seminar too. So i was gratefully.

To Be Continued...................................................................................................................................